As soon as I viewed the published post that I just wrote.. I realized the purpose and inspiration of this blog: to grow and to develop into your own being. 

And to jump over the rocks and hurdles in life ....... so how am i gonna overcome this sadness and sorrow---- it feels like a blanket---- but i think i m going to jump over it all and smile and dance .... 

BUT HOW????

my next post 

The sorrows of life

Another blog eh...... so I'm hanging out in Pakistan... apparently on vacay..

How is it a vacay when I got an essay due the 17th,... and my BF  is pretty upset with me over?

Currently I'm pretty confused about everything, the BF, the life,  the options, the work, even the vacay doesn't seem like a vacation... life just seems dull and sad... and un colourful.. 

its an upsetting moment and phase in my life ... TOTALLY SAD :( hating this vacation that i was supposed to enjoy..

the knowledge

and so it begins or appears to begin..... angry because i did not treat his friend well, because i spoke my mind. but what about me? he said the he liked us better before, he said that he wasn't attracted to me like before, accused me of unethical things----- what about all that hurt?
I wonder where the empathy is in his heart, where the understanding is. if the veil of his ego will ever be lifted over his head. he purposely makes my look bad. And he has this way that he portrays me in front of his friends---- its terrible. I now know I must move on, I am not ready to talk. Not yet

To be a boy or to not be a girl?

Today, as I was procrastinating to do may two essay that are dues next Monday the 29, a presentation due the 23rd, a major exam on the 25th and all in time to prepare for my flight for the 28th, I came upon a 2007 cover of vogue Paris. Ooo André j, I hadn't heard of him/her until now, and I’m studying sexuality. Interesting eh. I think he really needs to be checked out by all. But especially I need to get over this procrastination.... ahhhhhh God help me.

PS  I bought my Mac book air today, and got it modified with a 4GB, I’m going to pick it up this Tuesday :)

Andre J- Vouge paris cover (2007)

My first blog ever :)

An unfortunate event actually inspired me to start this blog. Maybe I’ll get to the details some other day, or maybe I won’t even remember. The purpose of the blog is anything and or everything related to my life. I hope to contribute something whenever I can. The purpose is not really for others to read but more for reflection.
Currently I'm reading the book Infidelity by Ann Pearlman. It’s quite interesting and reminds me of the imperfections of marriage. And there are many of those. And that is why I am not really interested in getting married, just interested in loving my life as boring, messed up, purposeless it is.

The name of the blog is Latin and translated in English. The title is inspired by the writer Adrienne Rich. She calls the erotic as power, suggesting that the life if any woman is erotic in its own way and empowering. So I'm aiming to find the empowerment in living life my way.


AR