As soon as I viewed the published post that I just wrote.. I realized the purpose and inspiration of this blog: to grow and to develop into your own being. 

And to jump over the rocks and hurdles in life ....... so how am i gonna overcome this sadness and sorrow---- it feels like a blanket---- but i think i m going to jump over it all and smile and dance .... 

BUT HOW????

my next post 

The sorrows of life

Another blog eh...... so I'm hanging out in Pakistan... apparently on vacay..

How is it a vacay when I got an essay due the 17th,... and my BF  is pretty upset with me over?

Currently I'm pretty confused about everything, the BF, the life,  the options, the work, even the vacay doesn't seem like a vacation... life just seems dull and sad... and un colourful.. 

its an upsetting moment and phase in my life ... TOTALLY SAD :( hating this vacation that i was supposed to enjoy..