So after many years, I have finally gained my concentration and I have sat continually to work on a project, usually I keep procrastinating but something that someone said has really inspired me to continue working and make sure I get admitted into a grad program.
What was said?
" You know ill admit it you are boring, and we usually don’t have exciting plans anymore, and the way u used to be in the beginning u r not like that anymore. You continually nag me and I think you are going to be like any old school wife-- I think we are losing the ‘charm’
Me- and what do you think about yourself?
Well I know I’ve changed and I like spending time in the car as well nothing exciting and I always just want to get between your legs and you know you always want to spend time connecting first, and you try to play hard to get-- its quite you know -- like typical wife----- but I still want to marry you"
And what I thought:
Gee thanks, I’m so lucky to have a jackass like you eh. And you were the guy I thought I wanted to marry. I think that might not be the case any more... what benefit have I gotten from you?
And many times like this one included I "work" to make this relationship better. I question so I can correct. I think its time you did the same...
Because I've got a life of my own and I’m going to get into grad school and run my own life here.
So thanks for inspiring me to think of you as a jerk in my life as a person I can use when I need to. The less I use you or contact you the better I will feel.
From this day onwards I’ll take the saying "a woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle" to heart and I can STOP thinking of you :)
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